Just a thinking

FYI: Kind of a random post, I figure it's my turn for one of these!

Here lately I've had a lot of time to look back and reflect on the life I've lived so far. To this point I am happy with the way things have turned out. Looking back there are things that I've done that I am certainly not proud of, but I think that in doing those things I have become the person I am today. There are regrets, but nothing that I would change, as it would change the life I have today. Before I met Casey, I regretted moving down to this area, I left my family, was all alone and Kylee wouldn't grow up around the majority of her family. But now I see, I had to go through what I did, to get to where I am. I met the most amazing man that made me feel so special at a time in my life when I felt like.....nothing.

I knew from the first time we talked that I like him, he was funny and such a smart a$$! But he made me laugh, he still makes me laugh! He used to tell me to not expect flowers or foot rubs or anything romantic at all cause he just wasn't in to that stuff. Ha! I got flowers on my birthday, and he rubs my feet when we are sitting on the couch without even thinking about it, and he is romantic, not in a sappy, mushy way, but the way that makes my heart melt when he looks me in the eye and tells me he loves me. I have never felt love like that, I know he would do anything for me and our family.

Our first Christmas together, I worked with a women who was going through a very rough time in her marriage, her husband had left her with two (twin) little girls, a mortgage, and truck payment all right before the holidays. She was upset because she wasn't going to be able to get anything for her girls. She confided in me because I was her boss, but she did not want the whole office knowing. So I took up a collection from other office workers, under a false story, and was going to use what money I had left over from my Christmas shopping, to make sure those girls had Christmas. When I told Casey what I was doing, he went shopping with me, he helped pick out things and helped me pay for them. If I hadn't of already figured it out on my own, that would have told me that he was a keeper! My heart was so full that day.

I'm not sure why I started thinking about all of these things, I guess it is because of the upcoming Holiday's. I just think " I am so lucky to have what I have, a wonderful, loving husband, two awesome kids, and a family like no other (extended family included!). I love my life and the road we are on right now and I'm looking forward to the future we are going to build together.